It's the Little Things

I went to bed last night with a plan.
I woke up today and I was already behind on it.

Things never seem to go the way I plan them the night before. But regardless, I made the family breakfast and then I hopped in the shower so I could head on over and enroll into college.
(that's another story)
Anyway. I got out of the shower and wrapped my towel around me. IT WENT AROUND ME. I screamed for Ben(my husband) because the towels have never wrapped completely around me. It was awesome. I was so excited. It is the little things like that, that help me remember, that what I am doing is worth it for ME. I AM WORTH IT.
Fast forward.
I am driving over to the college I am going to be attending, just to get a phone call from Ben that he needed to get into work. He felt really bad. I cried on my way home. I have been trying to get everything ready and set before we go visit back home next week. So I just told myself maybe the time isn't right for me to go back to school. Well, he went into work and he was back an hour or so later. He walked in the house and threw me the keys and told me to get my butt over there so I could get the process started. So I did.
As I was sitting in the seat, looking over the application I felt like an IDIOT. A complete idiot. It just made me feel worse, because I had already had to tell the receptionist that I did not have a high school diploma, but a GED. I know I shouldn't care, but I let it get to me sometimes. Anyway, so as I am filling out this application so many of the questions were so confusing. But I got through it and finished it. My mind was racing, I kept thinking "Are you sure, Jessi?" Well, I didn't have much time to think because a counselor called me back right away. We talked about some things and about how I didn't need my transcripts because it had been SO long since I have been in school. I have to retake the tests and then go over a degree plan. I am still having a headache over all of this because then after I got finished I came home and started the financial aid process. Then I had to go through my emails to start our daycare assistance process. That alone is another whole headache in itself.
I am just going to be blunt. It really sucks being away from all our family and friends when I need to go places and get things done that the kids can't necessarily be with me to do. My husband can't get off work, and I need to go test, or go to financial aid services, or anything. It isn't fun and it is downright stressful. Then, once we are back from visiting home, I get to go find daycares. I get to try and find one that has openings for both girls, while making sure that I am only scheduling class during school hours for the other 2 so we save money.
Well, in doing all of this, you can bet your behinds I have a headache.
But you know what?
I am thankful. I am blessed. I have the opportunity to go to school. I have the opportunity to get help with daycare. I just need to get everything set, so I can take full advantage of what is in front of me.
It is ok for things not to go as planned, you'll get there anyway the way you didn't plan most of the time.

Either way, I am STILL happy that I got the freaking towel around me. There is just a small little gap right by my thighs now!
Oh, and I promise, as I blog more, it really should get better. I don't want to bore anyone. :)