Some days I feel like super mom.
You know the moms that you see on TV or in magazines who have it all together? They have 3 kids surrounding them and their clothes are clean and if they have chocolate faces it is perfectly aligned right around their mouth? The "mess" they have in their living room consists of 3 toys laying out on the floor and 2 plates and a cup sitting in the sink.
I want to be in a magazine. I want everyone to see my 10 loads of clean laundry that sits on my couch in my entrance area unfolded for a few days (sometimes longer) unfolded. I want to show everyone my kitchen sink over loaded with dishes because I have already unloaded the dang thing twice that day and I am waiting for the husband to come home so I can suck up to him so he will be nice and do it. He usually doesnt mind. We bargain.
Does anyone want to see my room? No? Okay then.
I love my kids like crazy. They are amazing little human beings. Motherhood is awesome. Sometimes it isn't, but all in all it really is.
But today I felt like a supermom. I had a *little* over an hour to get Isabelah and Rosayliah and head to the grocery store, shop, get back and put everything away in time to walk and get the kiddos. Being 4 and 2 is a fun age. A rambunctious age. A "Let's test mommy in everything" age.
I grocery shopped like a champ! I got out of the store with right around 40 minutes to get home and get it put away and walk to get the kids!
....until Isabelah reminded me that I had promised her muffins today.
Crap. I completely forgot while I was in the store. Rosayliah was already in her carseat and I was almost done putting the groceries in the back. I looked at her and I saw her face. I did NOT want to have to go through another meltdown. She had more than a few handfuls last week. It's the beginning of a new week, it's been a fantastic day and I wasn't letting anything ruin it!
I decided to handle that with a positive attitude so she would respond positively. I told her we had to hurry!
So we went back in the store. She was so polite, saying excuse me when she walked past anyone. She said please when she picked which muffins she wanted. Rosayliah was even being a good little stinker.
Once we got into the van it was then I realized that I had approx 25 minutes to make a 15 minute drive home, put the groceries away and get out the door to walk to get the kids.
WE. DID. IT.
It was awesome! I seriously felt on cloud 9. Ha! These types of things don't happen often. It must have been the adrenaline.
There are days I feel like a complete failure, it is something I am working on. Today was not one of them though. And the day is NOT over.
I am going to be awesome and fold these 10 loads of laundry in my entrance area. Not all of them but at least half, ha! I am going to work. I am going to make an awesome dinner! My husband will come home to a sane house today, because he deserves it.
Just because your life isn't like what you see on TV or in magazines doesn't make you less of a mom. It makes you a mom. We are all different. We all come from different ways we were raised. We have different priorities, but in the end, we all want what's best for our kids. Do what you can with what you have. I promise that if you keep working at it, and keep your faith, and do something about any tough situation you are in, it will get better. Never give up! Don't throw in the towel although somedays you will feel like you want to!
Just keep on pushing on. Their smiles are worth it. Knowing that you are raising this child to be on their own when they are grown and do "good" at being a grown up, makes it worth it.
XOXO
Jessi
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